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Sunday, November 29, 2009

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He wasn't here physically when I: earned my bachelor's degree; reached my goal of getting a full-time job in journalism after school; watched the world unravel on Sept. 11; bought 2 new cars; moved three times; picked myself up and dusted myself off to start all over again; attempted only once the famous fried chicken recipe that no one can seem to duplicate; used my inherited Spidey-sense of direction more times than I can count; or started performing high kicks out to the sides of my shopping cart, to accompany my singing, like he did.

But some part of him is always there: when I flip through the recipe book of things he always cooked and computer-made pages he created; when I pump gas and don't spill any on the side of my car like I did the first time he made me do it after getting my license; in the moments I have to do something that makes me nervous and I remember his calm demeanor and "you can do it" attitude towards me; when I look in the mirror and see that same little bump on my left ear and his eyes looking back at me.

3,650 days. Things fade in the rearview mirror. But they'll never disappear.

Labels: Story Sunday

posted by Tara Lynn Johnson at 2:18 PM

10 Comments:

Anonymous Brenda said...

Never ever disappear. Miss him. Love him. And Love you.

8:58 AM, November 30, 2009  
Blogger Tara Lynn Johnson said...

Awwww. Love ya back. MWAH! :-)

10:44 AM, November 30, 2009  
Blogger teahouse said...

Who was this? Sounds like he had a profound effect on your life. Hugs :o)

9:05 PM, November 30, 2009  
Blogger Tara Lynn Johnson said...

My father.

4:30 PM, December 01, 2009  
Blogger Robin said...

so sweet. sorry i keep missing you here.

3:01 PM, December 08, 2009  
Blogger Tara Lynn Johnson said...

I usually post an update on the Facebook. :)

4:40 PM, December 08, 2009  
Blogger Fred said...

Excellent post, Tara. I hope my children can write this about me someday.

6:47 PM, December 13, 2009  
Blogger Michael Manning said...

Very nice, Tara. Next Saturday it will be 9 years ago that I lost my Dad and I still miss him. (((HUGS))) to you! :)

11:46 PM, December 13, 2009  
Blogger Carmi said...

I'm just coming up on three months, and your entry resonates deeply with me, for it's exactly how I've been trying to hold on to the memories and make them a part of the everyday.

This life thing is hard, especially when we lose the people who literally gave us life. But thankfully technology helps connect us with kind souls who get it. So glad I read this today, Tara. May our dads' memories always be blessings to us all.

12:14 PM, December 16, 2009  
Blogger Tara Lynn Johnson said...

From what I've seen and read, Fred, I'm sure they will.

Hi Michael. I'm so sorry for your loss, too. *hugs*

Carmi, thank you for your kind words. I'm glad you found your way here while this post is lingering at the top of my page. It does get easier and the tears give way to smiles of happy memories sooner rather than later. *hugs*

12:13 AM, December 17, 2009  

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